My Default Mental Movie Has Changed Again
I’ve always been a kind of nervous and insecure kid, though I don’t know how often it shows externally. To help me deal with this, I always have some kind of movie playing in the background of my mind that comes to the forefront when I get agitated or scared or nervous. I’ve done this at least as far back as junior high. Back then, if I found myself in an awkward social situation, or remembered something dumb I’d said, or thought about how I’d never have a girlfriend, a movie of me playing the song “Katie”, which I wrote with my band at the time, would play in my head and I’d feel better.
The movie has changed a few times, but that’s all that’s changed. As I aged and joined other bands, the song would change. Then I discovered Spider-Man, and the movie changed to me jumping off of a building and swinging from a web. Then Batman Begins came out, and the movie changed to me jumping off of a building and hang gliding on my cape.
This morning I realized that it’s changed again. Now when I find myself in an awkward social situation, or remember something dumb I’ve said, or think about how I’ll never have a girlfriend, I imagine myself playing a monome:
Stumble it!
August 19th, 2009 at 8:58 am
I think everyone has a mental device like this. I happen to act out entire arguments in my head with the person I’m upset with. After I’ve gone through the entire angry exchange in my head, I usually feel better.
August 21st, 2009 at 5:00 pm
I usually just yell the following phrases at random:
1. It’s a trap
2. our [x] can’t withstand [y] of that magnitude
3. AMIRIGHT?!
I mean, help me out guys?
It’s a trap,
AA
PS. It’s a trap.
August 21st, 2009 at 5:01 pm
Well, everyone has their secret blogs (inside joke).
August 21st, 2009 at 5:26 pm
Agreed